22 September 2005: Living dead

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Dead living and as a newborn child

I meet myself as a newborn child. Simply dressed, I find myself aboard a boat not knowing if I can get off it.

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Chreel dreamed she told someone: “I have a man living with me, I like him very much. He is living dead.”


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I was away somewhere and was about to go home. Before this could happen I had to clean and take care of all sorts of things.

A woman was present with me. She had a newborn baby boy in her arms, a boy who could not have been more than a few hours old. The woman handed me the newborn and I held him close to my heart, I really loved him. I also think I had him next to me in bed. I was a little afraid I would squash him. It felt as if the boy and I were the same person, the same life.

Yes, it is how it is. Life always goes on. Not always in the way you want. But everything ultimately turns out good.


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I was aboard a large boat, talking to a bunch of people. I can’t remember what we talked about. A man was with me all the time.

The ship anchored up. I stood and saw the wide gangway that was put out from ship to shore. Men who looked alike came out and started to walk onto the gangway to get ashore. The men had suits and ties, they were all very neat.

A guard stood at the exit of the gangway. When a certain number of men had passed over, he stopped the rest. He could not let any number of people ashore directly.

Myself I was dressed in very simple clothes where I stood.


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