From way back to now
|Chreel sees herself from the 10th century, Jorun finds out what happened around Elijah’s cave and memories of past cosmic disasters turn up, even as Jorun receives visitors from another dimension.
26 May 1999
Chreel: I saw my own face, wearing a wimple headdress.
Amper (always in italics): – You were Jorun’s wife in the tenth century. You were so lost in life that you had nothing to live for.
You terrorized everyone. You looked like a saint but were a monster.
– He was even worse than you. You have now received forgiveness.
2 June 1999
I feel weak at the knees right now, it feels that something has changed. Something has happened that actually cannot happen. But everything can of course be done if the supreme one wishes.
It is so infinite that we have do not a shadow of a chance of understanding it.
What we humans call history has somehow turned inside out on itself. It is like effects are expanding far beyond the causes.
I do not understand much about it, it just feels so. And is that feeling I am following.
I felt how something came through the wall from outside. It tried to get in contact. What arrived was three men, big-framed, with dark brown skin.
“How could you? How do you do it?”
I replied: “We just love everything and everyone in the entire cosmos, all the time, we know nothing else.”
The three strong men knelt and bowed their heads, they hardly dared look at me.
I told them to get up and hugged each of them. Told them that I loved them infinitely.
They were with me a long time, it felt good that they came.
It seems as if something or someone is observing what is happening here on our planet, and perhaps even other places out there.
I watched TV that evening. I had the realization that that which has happened in life, which I thought was terrible, was not. It meant so little compared to what I got to know during a few seconds. It was so deep. I thought that I had betrayed the whole universe, that I caused all things to end. It was something that I simply cannot understand. It maybe has to do with the dream about Mars, in the ravine. As I write this, it feels so.
30 July 1999
Jorun and Chreel remember a beautiful meeting in another time when they received valuable advice.
Amper (always in italics): – It was the White Eagle, in Oregon. You wanted to unite the tribes and it succeeded. It was limited geographically.
– It was me who did not listen to my mother.
– In the morning you travel to my country. You were my help in Carmel. All my knowledge I had of you. You are now in balance so that you can live successfully. You are now ready for greater tasks. Go to bed now, you two.
19 August 1999
Jorun finds out that they were very important for Amper long ago, when he narrowly escaped death.
Amper (always in italics): – You were close to not guaranteeing my journey in Israel.
Jorun / Göran: We do not really understand. Explain more?
– You did promise me and Ona safe passage. We were going to travel the pilgrimage route. You thought only of Elias, the prophet, but it was my cave.
– You were wrong about the ropes. You gave them to me that time.
Is that you Amper?
– Yes it’s me. You gave me the ropes to go up to Carmel.
Did you live in what today is called Elias’, Elijah’s Cave?
-Yes, it was my home. My legs did not work. You helped me to become whole. Chreel and Jorun, your love is so healing.
Did you get the use of your legs back, Amper?
– Yes, I did.
Could you pull yourself up with the ropes we made?
– Yes, it was so. The sacrificial lamb was almost killed. You gave to me then that which you are now giving to me.
Now, you are my lotus. You have now what I had in the past. You are now on the same path I was. You walk in my footsteps. You do not yet understand.
You have each other. I had no-one. It was not easy, so you go together.
A lot of work lies ahead. You call me and Ona the Ona and Amper team. You are so diligent with what you do.