—— ooOO – OOoo ——

A thousand creatures were grazing in a meadow. Something scared them terribly, and they fled for all they were worth. They eventually came to a place where there was no turning back.

A large ravine with steep walls opened to them. They were so terrified that they threw themselves straight out and ended up at the bottom of the ravine. It was a wretched scene.

Some died immediately, others suffered for a long, long time. Everything was awful.

This ravine or valley would never be the same again. The flies buzzed around rotting corpses, the stench, unbearable, spread around the neighborhood. Nothing could be done to make the valley like it was before the creatures escaped.

A long time passed. Those who had seen all this happen wandered along through the valley, thinking no longer of the suffering and the terrible things that had happened.

I came there by chance, passing this hapless valley. But why not go to the edge and see what it looks now? Oh! Is this where the horror happened?

Nothing was the same. Whitening bones lay like scars in the landscape. Everywhere grass and small bushes were growing. Birds flew with food in their beaks to their nests, bees buzzed around a multitude of flowers.

I thought this cannot happen. How can something so beautiful exist now where previously was only woe and lamentation? Love finally, after an infinite amount of time, had come forward. And now in its own way, love had overcome the limitations of the self.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I sometimes feel like a hologram. And it feels as if something or someone is threatened. Not in the normal way, but it feels like I’m out there and yearning for myself. At the same time, though, I understand that out there is as much at home as here.

It is as if something wants to show itself or come forward. I know and understand that it is up to me. Yes, sometimes I don’t know, I can’t figure it out which ways. Something in the future that is also in the present keeps making itself felt. It is like it is a very narrow channel. A communication channel is available, but how can one find it in a waking state?

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

After my morning round earlier today I saw a solid stone bridge with arches over a river. There was something peaceful about this image.

I even saw a meat grinder of the old type, full of mashed turnips, other root vegetables and potatoes. My task was to clean it. It was totally full of compressed mash. I got my hands full of warm root mash. There was so much that it fell on the floor. With this, I got a reply from all the plants I walk together with on my morning and evening rounds.

It happens rarely that I feel so happy. I was lying down musing about the meat grinder when the words came to me. I understand exactly how it is. I understand to a degree that I am really surprised.

I’m so happy to be able to be doing what I am meant to do.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I was out somewhere, swimming towards the shore. I had to keep myself hidden and tried to avoid being seen.

I arrived at a small office. A man said to me: “Are you here?”

From this small unassuming office everything originated.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I was waiting for a woman to arrive. There was the ocean outside, tides were coming and going.

Suddenly, it was high tide. Normally, it takes many hours for the tide to reach its highest level. But not here. It came instantly. It flowed so fast, the currents were strong. I wondered if my boots would hold up for this water, but they did. I waded into the water, waiting for the woman who I was going to go with out to sea.

She had a few things or errands she wanted to finish first. Then we would leave. There was also some sort of secret associated with this woman.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I was in an office on a building site, a man was with me. He was some sort of controller or supervisor. The furnishings were basic. There might have been other men, or maybe a woman there. I am not sure.

I came back to the office the next morning. The door was closed, I thought it was locked. I pushed on it and discovered that it was open.

Inside, on a large table were a lot of glasses. In each one of these glasses and small vases stood a simple flower. There were also several key-rings with many keys on each of them. The man or woman who left me the night before had given me all this.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I saw a waterfall of gigantic dimensions. There was no end to it.

—— ooOO – OOoo ——

I was in a dream, in a room with a large table. On the table lay three mines. I thought when I woke up there also were three men there, but that was not the case. I was alone and was facing something very difficult to understand.

Now I know. Earth, water, fire and air. Both to the left and right. Had the earth been included four mines would have been present. Now there were three and all is well with that. Starting this evening, it seems to be among the last things to be grasped. The last thing in order to be able to go further.

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“They were so terrified that they threw themselves straight out and ended up at the bottom of the ravine.”

“How can something so beautiful exist now where previously was only woe and lamentation?”

“Love finally, after
an infinite amount
of time, had come forward. And now i
n its own way, love had overcome the limitations
of the self.”  

“Something in the future that is also in the present keeps making itself felt.
It is like it is a very narrow channel”

“From this small unassuming office everything originated.”